Good Hello All and welcome to my blog to go with my new YouTube Channel "The Big Girl Chronicles".

I am sure this channel name has been taken by oh... 500 other big girl chronicles but meh It's staying.

So lets get down to the nitty gritty.

I'M FAT. Yup... I push the scales between 260-270 and I am by no means proud of this. Am I here to body shame myself? Nope. Am I here to tell others that this is unhealthy and that they need to change if you are like me? NOPE. Am I here to hold myself accountable and push myself and possibly even get a community of people to all try and achieve one goal and thats being the best, healthy person you can be? ....YEP.

Now lets get a few things out in the open.

-I am 30 years old
-I am single
-My weight (like said) ranges between 260-270
-I have been teased MY ENTIRE LIFE ABOUT my weight (no jokes just follow me on this blog and you will see what I mean)
-I have a thyroid problem
-I believe I have a sugar addiction. Whether or not this is a real addiction is not for discussion I think it's real and I think I really am addicted to sugar.
-I truly believe that what others don't see me eat, it doesn't count
-I hate eating in front of people. I always think that they are judging me being a big girl that if I eat a hamburger thats all they think I eat and that's why I am my size
-When I eat I sometimes feel really guilty, it can be a salad and I will still feel guilty
-I am an emotional eater. Proof was when my Papere passed away. All I did was eat... Especially the sugar and desserts. Although the guilt raced through my mind the sugar gave me comfort which I think just forced me to continue the loop
-I can be a train wreck of emotions sometimes... well FUCK that goes hand in hand doesn't it?
-I am lazy
-I can give the worlds best procrastinator (my dad) a run for their money. But I will do it tomorrow.
-I honestly believe I am funnier than I actually am. (Please see previous point)
-I cuss... like A LOT. I can be pretty fucking vulgar (sorry Mom, Memere or any other family members who are going to be reading this... all I can say about that is... I LOVE YOU! And when you guys are around, I try and tame my potty mouth. HAHA)
-I LOVE YouTube. I think it's a great way to build a community and help people grow with you. Of course you will have the trolls but, you live your life on the internet where assholes feel more empowered to speak behind a keyboard than to your face. You have to take the good with the bad in all aspects of life.
-For the past 3-4 years it has been a dream of mine to have a youtube channel. Some of my friends know I can be pretty creative and in the past have been musically inclined haha. I have gone away from my creative side and really desperately want to go back. I find YouTube the perfect vehicle to help me do so.
-I am a work in progress
-I have poor grammar and spelling so... suck it if you feel the need to correct EVERYTHING

I am going to try and have my Blog and my YouTube Channel correspond with each other. I want my blog to be where I am more accountable. I mostly want to post my food journal and my progress here. I need to put something out there. Its funny I work the best when I think I am being judged (in my mind I think people judge me all the time, even though I know thats not true and they probably don't even care about me or what I am doing). My YouTube Channel just general chats and vlogs I guess (I do though, want to have some skits and fun stuff added on there but... I have so many ideas in my head that I need to be more comfortable putting myself out there first). I have a lot on my mind and I need to get it out.

ANYWAYS... I have rambled on long enough.

Hope to see a lot of you follow my journey and I would LOVE for you to share your opinions and tips. (Also sharing is caring so share the link to my Blog and Channel for all the other fabulous people can read and watch my shit show of a journey haha!)

"Be kind to One Another"~ Ellen Degeneres

Much love,
Danielle

YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCSFy9CPkUjLNW1cv8fVfFZQ